Personal writing • Depression • Life • Everything else

Some days are written in colour.
Others arrive in black.

An unfiltered personal journal about depression, survival, life, and whatever refuses to stay silent.

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Depression, ordinary life, unreasonable opinions, flashes of colour—and whatever else will not remain unwritten.

Karate · Martial Arts · Philosophy · Self-Improvement

The Evolution of Karate: Embracing Change and Personalization in Martial Arts

This blog post delves into the debate surrounding the importance and preservation of different styles in karate, highlighting the value of personalization and adaptability in martial arts. Drawing inspiration from @shuridojo’s Instagram post, the article explores the concept of Shu Ha Ri, the perspectives of Gichin Funakoshi and Kenwa Mabuni, and the importance of making karate one’s own.

History · Philosophy · Spirituality

Hermeticism Demystified: What It Is Not

Hermeticism is an ancient philosophical and spiritual tradition that has influenced many disciplines throughout history. However, due to its esoteric nature, it has also been subject to numerous misunderstandings and misrepresentations. In this article, we aim to clear the air around what Hermeticism is not, in order to provide a better understanding of this fascinating tradition.

Birthdays · History · Humor and Satire

Happy 49th Birthday to Me

As my 49th birthday approaches, I can’t help but reflect on the history that surrounds this day. From important events to famous birthdays, March 14th has seen its fair share of moments. In this humorous blog post, I take a cynical look at the happenings on my birth date throughout history and celebrate the other famous figures born on March 14th.

Esotericism · History · Philosophy · Spirituality

Unveiling the Origins of Hermeticism: From Ancient Egypt to Modern Esotericism

Hermeticism is an ancient and complex esoteric tradition that has fascinated scholars and seekers for centuries. This article aims to uncover the origins and history of Hermeticism, tracing its roots from ancient Egypt to its modern-day influence on esotericism and occultism. We will explore the key figures and texts that shaped the Hermetic tradition, as well as its cultural and historical context.

Advocacy · Healthcare · Mental Health

The Invisible Struggle: How Gaslighting from Medical Professionals Impacts Patients with Hidden Illnesses

Mental illness is often misunderstood, and patients with hidden illnesses, such as depression, face an added challenge of having their symptoms go unnoticed or dismissed. When seeking help, these patients may encounter medical professionals who resort to gaslighting, questioning the validity of their illness and causing more harm than good. This article sheds light on the impact of gaslighting and provides tips for patients on how to advocate for themselves and find supportive medical professionals.

Esotericism · Philosophy · Spirituality

A Beginner’s Guide to Hermeticism: Unveiling the Secrets of an Ancient Esoteric Tradition

Hermeticism is an ancient esoteric tradition that has captured the imagination of seekers, philosophers, and mystics for centuries. This blog post provides an introduction to the world of Hermeticism for those who are new to the subject or unfamiliar with its teachings. From its origins in ancient Egypt to its influence on modern spirituality, we will explore the core concepts and practices of Hermeticism, as well as its impact on history and culture